Down

I was feeling extremely discouraged about my Legal Research Essay just now, because I cannot seem to focus and compile all my research into an essay. The essay is about the rules of intoxication in Criminal Law and the deadline is on Tuesday, 6 may. I keep getting distracted whenever I'm stuck- end up doing other things which make me even more tired. It's a mental block of fear and "I can't"; which has been building up since the Easter holidays when I was trying to get the essay done.

But I'm feeling alot better now- After Vincent gave me a head and neck massage, made me hot cholocate and is now going to make me a nutella sandwich. Most importantly, I asked him to pray for me and then I prayed myself too. :) I asked God to take away the mental obstacles that I faced and that I am giving Him my fear and worries. Also that the results are in His hands, I will just do what needs to be done. Reminded myself of this truth which Cheh used to write in her encouragement cards to me over the years "For God has not given me a spririt of fear, but a spirit of power, of love and self-control". I pinned it up on my noticeboard and put it up on my blog; partly because I was reading about how publicly performed behaviour influences and validates self-conception in my Psychology text. And of course, as a reminder of God's truth!

Also on my noticeboard is a poem from Daddy dated 31 October 1999- The last stanza reads

"Look down when up
And up when down
The one and only
He is up, There".